Tuesday, May 3, 2011

I Know


I Know

When we were young, you made everything seem easy.
Your hollow truths and empty promises
Could mend my broken heart and make my dreams come true.

You told me I could do anything –
That I could take my life in my hands.
But you knew I would do anything
To save your life instead.
So you knew you could do anything to me.

And the tangible lies
Through your Jezebel eyes
Screamed realities truer than sin.
And your well meaning words
Never sounded so absurd
When I took my fate in my hands.

Now I’ve poured blood, sweat, and tears
Over hours and years
For no more than a castle of cards,
And no mountain of words
From the meaningless herds
Can soften my well-seasoned heart.

I know they say the road to hell is paved with good intentions,
But I’ve walked that road far enough to know that I paved it with compromise.
Now the calloused fingers on these Midas hands
Cannot lay the best plans of mice and men.

I’ve poured blood, sweat, and tears
For so many years
For dreams that have fallen apart.
Only mountains of words
From your meaningless verse
Can comfort my well-treasoned heart.

Now you tell me I can do anything –
That I can take my life in my hands.
But still you know I will do anything
To save your life instead.
So you know you can do anything…
You know you can do anything…
I know you can do anything to me.

Monday, May 2, 2011

Bachelor for the Weekend

Surprisingly, my weekend as a bachelor has been far more productive than expected.  I have cleaned the apartment (including a fair share of laundry and dishes), and I have only ordered pizza once within the last 72 hours.  Heck, I don't even have the TV turned on.

The truth is, being alone for a few days has been a huge blessing.  Until now, I have not had (or perhaps taken) the time to process all of the changes of the last few months, but being alone has driven me to wrestle with myself.  To be expected, I suppose.  Regardless, I am grateful for a wife who realizes how much I need some time alone, as well as for the time itself.

So far, I have:
  • Grilled steak
  • Grilled chicken
  • Grilled potatoes
  • Grilled apples
  • Done some laundry
  • Done some dishes
  • Made pancakes with homemade strawberry sauce
  • Written a few lyrics to a song that has been humming itself in my head for years
  • Defined the characters for a play that I would love to (but probably never will) write
  • Watched multiple seasons of How I Met Your Mother
As you can see, lots of grilling, and lots of introspection.  Two wonderful things.

Shalom,
BB